Where It Started

Recently, I was cleaning out my crawl space, working through boxes that had been left untouched for years. One of those boxes contained a small collection of old cameras. Most of them carried a vague sense of familiarity. One of them did not require any effort to recognize. It was a Canon Rebel T1i, the first camera I ever learned how to use.

There was an SD card still inside the camera. Opening the files, I recognized many of the photographs immediately. I remembered where I had been standing and what had drawn my attention in each moment. What I did not remember was thinking about photography in any formal or analytical way. At the time, I was not working with intention in the way I understand it now. I was responding to what I noticed.

The earliest photographs on the card move between different settings without distinction. Animals and nature scenes appear alongside toys and figurines, given the same visual consideration. There is no indication that one subject was understood as more serious than another. The images reflect a way of noticing that hadn’t yet been shaped by instruction.

Later photographs show the same way of looking, but with more direction. Around the time I was twelve, I took a photography class, and its influence appears quietly in the work. Framing becomes more intentional and the images feel more considered, shaped by the act of being asked to look again and look longer. That said, what stands out most in the later images is not how much changed, but how much remains consistent. The attention that guided the earlier photographs is still there. It is not replaced or overridden. Instead, I can see my eye begin to organize itself without losing what first drew it to the world.

At the time the photographs were taken, I was not thinking about photography developing over time or about change. I was learning how to give form to what I already noticed. That process becomes visible not as a shift in what I saw, but in how deliberately I learned to work with it. When I look at the photographs I take now, I can still recognize the same habits. Seeing the early images next to my current work makes it clear that this way of looking is innate to me. That is where this photography class fits into the larger picture. It was not a beginning or a correction. It gave direction.

What these photographs on the SD card make visible is not how much changed, but how early the impulse to notice was already there. Having the images together, in one place, makes it possible to see what I could not see at the time. That Canon Rebel T1i holds the transition between taking photos because something caught my eye and taking photos with an awareness of why. The former came first. The latter arrived later.

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